Friday, September 4, 2009

And the story keeps going

The other day I had to buy size 8 shoes. I started college in a 6 1/2 or 7 depending on the shoe. Now I left the store comfortable in my size 8 Brooks running treds. I wasn't that happy to have needed this larger size but as the sales man said (as he backed up to avoid being punched)....women's feet continue to grow. This made me start to think about how life has changed over the past 5 years and how things have continued to grow and move forward. I have progressed from College Student to Nurse to California resident to Kansas resident to Wife to Widow to Graduate Student to Girl-friend. Sometimes it makes my head spin and others I have to stop and remember that this is my life!
I never thought I would date again after Will died. I think you just assume that after you have had it so good life can never be the same again, and in all honesty its not. Life is never the same once some one you love dies, but it can be good again. Part of life is that you are alive, that you continue to feel. I don't think you ever move on (although this may be a matter of semantics), it seems as though life moves forward and then pulls you along until you are able to catch up.
As I have been learning to move forward there have been many challenges but God continues to provide healing relationships and experiences. I continue to learn what it means to be alive.
One of these healing relationships has been with Adam and one of the reasons life moves forward is because much of life is with him now. So I just now keep moving forward, not moving on. I am so thankful to have been a part of Will's life. And the journey continues and will continue until it doesn't. Until then I will continue to experience, joy and sorrow, what this life has to offer.
This will probably be the most that I ever write . To those still reading here is the rest of the story as it has unfolded so far and from here on out, mostly in pictures. We will see what God has planned next!